I have been on an unplanned vacation. Soul work does not plan ahead, schedule days off, or choose a destination. It just decides, packs the tiniest of bags, and heads for the edges of Inanna's underworld. That is where I have been. . . hanging with my shadows, my fears, all that is unresolved. I have been tired, yet unable to sleep. Restless, yet too tired to really wander. I have erected a wall of sorts around my vulnerable places, and in so doing, have walled off my most wild and beautiful Self. Blood sugars have run high and tears shed far too often. Dreams go unremembered. My journals have quickly filled, but even these are like broken records. Words I never used to call up are written there: hopeless, lost, confused, why bother, failure. Still, bits of healing have made it through in the form of acupuncture, SouLodge, and perfectly timed snail mail from far away friends. My strong husband and my wise dog have handed me magic everyday regardless of my darkness.
Tomorrow is the second full moon of August - a Blue Moon. To honor Her bright beauty and draw upon this second chance, it seems appropriate to me to breathe some fresh life back into this space. It may only be small glimpses. My Muse muscle is a little out of shape.
As the moon goes full, know that I am wishing you much healing and magic in your life! That I have missed you, and that I hope to see you soon. . .